The cause of, and solution to all of lifes problems

So… Finally, I’m discussing the bless and curse that is alcohol. I was looking for some interesting papers on the immediate effect of alcohol on the human brain besides “getting drunk”. The whole “getting drunk” aspect is just a minor part of the immediate effect on the brain when drinking, but I could not find any reliable sources telling me exactly what happens when alcohol get into your blood stream (and your brain). But I can probably manage to create a blog post about the effects of alcohol anyway…

I’m going to assume that most of my (very few) readers have been drunk at least once, so I’m not going to indulge that feeling more than necessary; but I’ll try to define the phrase “being drunk” from my personal perspective.

For me, feeling a bit down or feeling apathy is part of “normal” life. But whenever I drink, for a brief moment, I don’t feel anything, and it’s such a relief. So, whenever I’m drunk, I feel like a normal human being once again. I can joke around with my friends and share a laugh, and don’t feel like I’m faking every emotion and reaction to my surroundings. In short; I feel “normal”.

If I could ignore the fact that alcohol is a bit addictive, this wouldn’t be a huge problem since I’m currently in college, and alcohol is a rather big part of the “student way of life”. The main problem is the effect on the human body and mind, and since I’m not in my early twenties anymore, alcohol is pretty much a devastating substance.

The big problem is this part: Whenever I start drinking, I don’t want to stop. Because moderate amounts of alcohol makes me forget my troubles and feel “normal” again, I just want to keep on drinking. This is actually a huge problem, since drinking more than a very small amount makes me a “temporary addict”.

A couple of years ago, when my depression were really severe, I was out clubbing three times/week - with a considerable amount of alcohol involved each night.  I still feel the downside of this… Sometimes, I feel like I really need a drink, without a “proper” reason.

The main problem is really this: Whenever I start drinking, I don’t want to stop. Sometimes, I feel the urge to get drunk - just to escape from reality - and that is something that you are not supposed to feel… So, here’s to alcohol: the cause and the solution to all of lifes problems!